Anniversary shoot

For our first wedding anniversary,  we had a mini shoot with our wedding photographer in our home. 
Below is a sneak peek

Waiting

Today God is telling me so many things,  I can't help but write another post.

Waiting!!! Every knows I hate waiting.  I usually sit still for five minutes,  fidget for the next five and then that is it! I'm done!

Some years ago, I gave up on dating and decided to wait on God's perfect gift. (So this is how I waited,  I will go to God every morning and whine and nag about how he has forgotten about me). But well, I still waited.  I waited from ending 2010 till May 2012 when I finally met B.

Since then, I have become more of a waiter.  I have to wait and trust completely in God. I have learnt to lean on His sure word.  I have learnt not to look at time. I have learnt to honour my wait, to respect it, to let the pain of waiting draw me closer to God, to just enjoy the beauty of waiting.

Waiting is hard but at the end we learn a lot. We learn to rest on the potter's wheel whilst He moulds us in His perfect time.

Without waiting,  I wouldn't have matured.  I wouldn't have known I would find peace and joy in the Lord through difficult moments. I wouldn't know redemption the way I do now. Wait is for rest!

And at the end of the day, we all need rest. I have waited and I have prayed and my eyes shall see the results of my labour! !

Isaiah 61v3

Have you considered?

Have you ever paused to consider who you are in God's eyes? I have and I came to the conclusion that,  I agree with the bible, "I am the apple of God's eye"

With this is mind, I have considered how He created me. He created me in His image. An image of perfection.  I look amazingly at what my body can do and I notice the intricate details with which He made me

HE LOVES ME.
We love because He first loved us. Yesterday marked six years since I got to know Christ and it seems like I never lived before those six years.  Everything I know now was learnt at the foot of the Cross.  I learnt to love by loving those who seemed impossible to love.  I learnt to give by giving myself to others. I learnt by being a Christian.

HE CARES ABOUT THE TINY DETAILS
God did not just create me, He cares for me. I have a favourite saying which I say whenever life seems to overwhelm me. "His love in times past forbids me to think He will leave me at last in trouble to sink". The bible also asks "Can a woman's tender care cease towards the child she bares". I used to not get this till I had the divine revelation.  A mother will die for her unborn child, how much more the born one? GOD CARES FOR US THIS WAY AND MORE.

HE PROTECTS US.
God protects us. In our going in and our coming out. Just like a mother will protect her children by making sure they are well catered for, God does that and more. Awesome.

HE FOREVER FORGIVES.
I struggled with this for years. Severally the devil told me God had had enough of forgiving me. I believed it! Then God himself gave me a divine revelation of motherhood. To think an earthly mother forgives her child severally in a day cos that is her child. HOW MUCH MORE OUR HEAVENLY FATHER?

Now to the tough question,  Are we ready to replicate the nature of God to our neighbours?  The goal is to be Christlike in all our ways. Choosing to love others as we are loved is a great place to start

An open letter to the awesome man who made me a wife!!

IMy dear KO,
Today is the eve of our first wedding anniversary and I am lying on the couch looking through our wedding pictures on my laptop and I am smiling. I don't think I have laughed so happily like I did on our wedding day. Thanks so much for giving me that beautiful day. The memory will always make me smile.

A year ago today,  I was anxiously waiting for time to fly so I could be your wife and start life by your side. A year later,  I am lying here trying to remember the exact moment life gave me this beautiful gift.  YOU!!!! And I realise it doesn't matter anyway,  your presence healed a heart that was frozen to the idea of love. Thanks for proving to me each day that love is a beautiful thing. Not that maybe, could this be it kind. THANKS FOR SHOWING ME TRUE LOVE LIKE I NEVER KNEW!!

"I may not be the first person to fall in love with you but I !m your perfect last". On our wedding day, with these exact words, you swore your life to me forever.
I can't believe we are no longer the newly weds, we are now just an old married couple and that makes me smile. The past year is easily the best year of my life because you were there with me even when distance was between us, you lived in my heart daily.

B; I love being maried to you. I love waking up to your handsome (snoring) face each day, I love falling asleep beside you each
night, I love bugging you with my plenty talks, I love it when you try getting me to sit still (and fail). I love being myself around you, I love knowing you are just you around me.

I love your eyes, your smile, the serious look you have during soccer match, your too known things when you finally get the chance to teach me something new. I love hearing you laugh when I am seriously telling you about my drama. I love your hugs and your kisses.

A year down the line, God definitely thought of me when he made you. Thank you for being my best friend, Thank you for being my rock, Thank you for being my prayer partner, Thank you for dragging me to church on Sundays, Thank you for being my biggest fan and most constant support, Thank you for being the head of our family, Thank you for always making
sure I am spoilt and putting up with my princess days.

B, on our first wedding anniversary,  I just want you to know,  you are amazing with a heart of gold.  To the world,  you are just Capt N, to me, you are my one simple reason for ever believing in true love, in happily ever afters, you are my fairy tale which came true. You are most annoying, irritating human being God ever created but I wouldn't have you any other way cos you are My annoying, irritating person!!!! MY PERSONAL PERSON.  The one who placed gold on my finger and gave me love like I never knew. You are the herald of our future and the father of our legacy.  I love you, always have (probably from our first hello) and always will....

The best decision I ever took was marrying you "my perfect last" and I can't wait till we are old and grey and wrinkled
and toothless and sipping on light soup. The grandkids will definitely be calling you "old soldier" then but you will remain,
the hero I love.

Almost a year later

I don't know what I am going to write about but I know it's 3am and I can't sleep and in 2 weeks time,  KO and I would have been married for a whole year.

It seems like just yesterday when I was blogging about wedding planning and making a life with this person.  But now, it's a year later!!!

Life in the past year has been worth it. A lot of challenges,  a lot of smiles, a lot of lessons, a lot of laughter and a year later, I am still as smitten as I was when I first realised I had fallen in love with him.  And as he so eloquently put it today,  "God has blessed us". And that is all we need to know!!!

I think in the subsequent two weeks,  I will finally share our love story and of course an anniversary post or something so.

I love being the wife of my husband.  Really,  I love being married.  I love the we time when we are just on the couch doing nothing just watching tv. I love it when he prays for me. I love that the last thing he does before he sleeps every night is to check that all the locks are secured,  lay hand on me and pray for me, kiss me on rhe forehead and whisper "I love you". Even if he thinks I am asleep.

I love that he wakes up earlier every morning to get me hot water to shower which allows me a few minute of extra sleep.

I love it when he irons for me.

I love it when he allows me to use his stomach for experiment

I just love him and every bit of him

Believer

When we first started 'talking', he asked me if I believed in Soulmates, I said no. A little less than a year later, I looked to him and said, " A soulmate,  is someone who puts up with your BS, thinks your weird is cute and pushes you to be your best. Thanks for making me a believer"

A little over a year later, I can add, "A soulmate is someone who loves you through and through and makes you smile and knows how to make everything right and loving him doesn't wear you out. It's like a permanent crush. Thanks for making me a believer"

Daddy's girl

I love my dad! He is my first real lesson on how any man should treat me. Anyone who knows me knows I am a daddy's princess and like most daddy's girls, sometimes I have my diva moments.

Anyway, last weekend hubby travelled for some military function so I decided to go spend the weekend with my dad and boy, did I get spoilt.

I arroved Saturday morning and spent the morning with my dad catching up. We caught up on what I have been up to and had breakfast together.  We did same on Sunday and spent more time talking about life, love, marriage and the future.

If there is one thing I know for sure, my dad did an awesome job bringing me up. He taught me to love, laugh and be content with my lot. These attributes have stuck with me and will definitely take me places.  In this short life of mine, I have seen a lot of people ruin what would have been a glorious future by not being content. 

I have seen many wives get bitter and destroy their own homes with their 'I deserve more than what I have now' attitude.

Today, let me be quite frank with you, misplaced ambition will be the end of you. Misplaced ambition will make you bitter and the bible says it is better to live on top of a roof than to live with a bitter woman.

Woman, why lose your graceful nature because you think life owes you? Why lose your joy and the spark in your eye because you think you have to be a fighter.  Is it really worth it?

Better by far u should forget and smile

When God and man work on creating a miracle

I have been struggling to come up with an appropriate post but still na da! Nothing!  Writers block!! But anyway,  I am here.

The wait is over, hubby is back.  Maybe that is why I have been away for a while. But today, I have quite an interesting post.

In Africa,  immediately you marry, everybody expects you to have a baby and if you don't have a bump to show off in 3 months, well, society has an unspoken way of making you feel inadequate or somehow, less as a woman.

Of late, people have been asking the hubby and myself when we are expecting.  While that question is extremely annoying,  it is wrong by all standards. What has our baby plans got to do with anything?

The value of marriage, in my opinion, has been reduced to childbearing. Many happy homes have been destroyed due to situations like this. I know a couple who started doubting their fertility when they had not made a baby after just 3 months of marriage.

I believe a child is a gift from God. It is the only time God and man work together to make a miracle.  A child is a beautiful blessing and for those trying, keep your eyes on God. In due season, He will bless your home.

Don't let people steal your joy, keep your eyes on God and continue keeping the joy in your home. Stay focused, happy and blessed.

The one He kept for me

God bless my husband.
I love my love story. Maybe I appreciate it all the more because I know what it takes to date hoping that is the last one only to find yourself disappointed. But even if KO and I had found each other years earlier, I’m certain I’d still be pretty crazily in love with him had I not had to wait for him. He’s truly a gift, the best one God has given me besides salvation.

Looking back, I can see how God’s
timing worked perfectly for us. We
both had to grow in our individual
ways in order to be ready for each
other, and for our relationship. We had lessons to learn, tears to shed and strength to gain. We had to let go of so many misconception to find what God had kept for us. But the wait was not easy. In fact, it often was suffocating as I found myself dating, undating and redating.

However, as He does so well, God
used the waiting time to refine some of my mixed-up views and ways of processing emotions. And He taught me that, the breathless love of my girlhood dreams,the one we all dreamt about when we dreamt of Prince Charming simply wasn’t enough. In love’s waiting room, he did some major transplanting and gave me some brains and a bigger heart.

My Love Story
I mentioned that I love my love
story. I should tell you that, even though I didn't always have a relationship with God,I wanted God to write my romance in a way that was undeniably his handwriting. I always said, "When I marry, everyone with say for a girl who took so many messed up decisions in life, she made the perfect choice of a life partner" . I wanted the real thing, not the settled-for-probably-good-enough version. I wanted the Cinderella fairy tale only he could create.

He gave it to me.

I'm not going to tell you about my love story yet. But you should know I met K twice. The first time, he was just one of the guys in the crowd. We never spoke, never said a word and well, he caught my attention then but for a brief second. He was forgotten in minutes and I never got to know his name.

Seven years later, after God had refined me and him as well, by some miraculous means, God reintroduced us. No, I didn't know he was the stranger in the crowd. Like I said, I had long forgotten about that incident till my bff reminded me. (Btw, K is her big brother's bff)

So what exactly is my point? When you give your all to God, He gives you His very best. God is love. So many times the bible has reminded us. And He that is love knows how to give your heart desires. His timing might be different but His gifts are eternal.

When God gives it to you, it will not be that woulda-coulda-shoulda kind. It is always the real deal and once He has center place in your lives, He will perfect that which concerns you. He knows the way He taketh if you will walk with Him.

When God has your heart, He will mould you into the wife He wants you to be. He will prepare the husband you need for you.

He will break you and mould you. He will wean people from your life. He will prepare a table before you in the presence of your enemies.

Today, hand over every bit of your life to Him, invite Jesus to take control and watch Him do an awesome thing with your life.

Be blessed

Newly wed weight gain

It's real people, it really is. Two months after my wedding when I dared stepped on a scale, I had gained 10kg. Nope, I wasn't shocked, I kept coming up with excuses till one day, I saw a pic of me and I knew the weight had to go by all means.

I am not new to dieting. I have tried everything and even once did the master cleanse but I always ended up gaining the weight back. So this time I chose the tough route. I decided to work out and eat clean.

I started with Shaun T's 60 days insanity challenge. Boy, that is the hardest thing I have ever done. I couldn't stick to all 60 days. Somewhere after day 40, I gave up but the results were amazing. I was already looking toned and feeling good.

I decided a work out plan that I could stick to. Something, I could actually do for life. I got introduced to weight lifting. Well, honestly I am not seeing quick results like I did with insanity but I feel myself getting stronger and toned. I know I will stick to strength training.

However, to maximise weight loss, I think I will do one insanity day per week and still do my weight training 4 days a week. A day for lower and upper body, a day for abs and a day for all three.

Its hard, its tough but I love it. Can't wait to start training with le boo soon

The demon called Social media

It was hi5, then Facebook, then Whatsapp, then viber, then instagram, then Telegram...

Every single one of them attempting to steal our attention.

I believe in the power of social media, I reconnected with B on Whatsapp which led us to where we are, I have over one thousand face book friends and over 500 pictures on instagram. It seems we spend our time, making private moments public. Wear that dress and take a selfie, be busy trying to capture your baby's first smile instead of falling in love with it just to share with the world. Or dress up and go for that perfect date with that perfect one only to spend it starring at our phones. We forget to live in the moment instead, we create shots just to share with the world.

I am guilty and I did not even know it.

Till I saw this video .

Tears rolled down my cheek by the end of this video and I knew I had missed out several magical moments.

Today I take a stance to put down my phone and look up. I am going to be starring more into the boos eyes when he comes, make private moments exactly what they are, private.... And allow myself to fall in love with life again.

What about you?

Oldie but goodie

I always wondered why so many brides shed tears on their wedding day. I often wonder whether they have no fear of ruining their make up or what exactly will cause tears to roll down a bride's cheek on what is going to be the most beautiful day of her life.

Finally, I have it all figured out! The journey to the alter is not easy! It is one filled with try and error, pain, unshed tears and finally the joy of finding the one in whose eyes you see your entire future... Unlike most guests at a wedding, my attention is not drawn to the bride when I hear the traditional tune for the bridal march... There is more time to aww over her perfectly done make up and manicure. But I have only a brief second to capture the emotions on the grooms face. So whilst everyone is awwing over the bride, I stare deep into the face of man who will soon promise this woman the rest of his life. Often, I see the young man beaming with smiles and pride. Well, it is expected on this day. However, once or twice have I caught a groom wiping tears from his eyes whilst trying to smile for the camera. And these men leave me feeling a teeny weeny bit jealous of his bride. A man who is in tune with his emotions.

Growing up in the „Beema ensu“ culture, it is hard to grab a man who will openly declare his love with a quickly wiped away tear that the journey to the alter is not easy for the man as well. And nope; I am not talking about the cost involved in planning this day. I am droning on and on about the near in love experience, the heartbreaks, the pain.... you name it! I'm sure on my wedding day, I am going to make a sign of the cross before I allow the tears to flow in memory of all the potential men who could be waiting for me at the end of the aisle and go ahead to give mysekf a mental pat on the back for making a sensible decision in the end. I am going to give myself a split second to savour what led me to select the stunning young man at the end of the aisle and proudly march on to exchange marital vows with him. I am going to savour every moment of my transition from girlfriend to wife and allow my wedding day to be the day both statuses will meet. I will start my journey as a fiancee and end as a wife.

And when that day is done, I am going to lay in his arms and promise to be the best wife he can ever ask for keeping my journey to the alter at the back of my mind!

I wrote this post in March 2010 and yup, I did shed a tear on my wedding day and I burst into laughter whilst crying... Oh to be a bride!!!!

Building a Christlike home

I do not claim to know all things. In fact, I know nothing but I am blessed to know He that knows all things-Christ and it is my prayer that He will be voice in this blog post.

Today is easter Saturday and I have nothing to do so I took time to study scripture and build myself up. Actually, it was necessary because I have been feeling quite overwhelmed by the world these last couple of days so I went to my maker for refuelling.

I have been led to write about building a Godly home. A Godly home. A home with Christ at the center of it all. A home where Christ is celebrated daily. The kind of home, I aspire to build with my king.

What is a home? I remember we used to have a placard in my living room as a kid that read, " With bricks a house is built but love makes a home". I loved that placard though I barely got the full meaning of the words. Love makes a home.

So the next question is, what is love? Once again, I love 1st Corinthians 13. We had that scripture read at our wedding and prior to that, I had spent some time studying it.

4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; [ b] 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,
endures all things.

8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as
for knowledge, it will pass away.

Verse 8 starts with a very powerful statement, love never ends...  It means the attributes of love never ends. Patience, kindness, non arrogance, non rudeness... THEY NEVER END!!

As I was typing this, I just realised how deep that is. It means I always have to be patient with the king, I always have to be kind to him, I don't have to be arrogant ever and vice versa. Wow, every married couple knows there are days you dont even want to see him, let alone be kind to him.

But scripture tells us that "and the two shall be one". It means in being kind to the king, I am generally being kind to myself.
And when I love him and vice versa forever, together we build a Godly home.

Is the standard too high? Naah, the standard is just Christlike and that is the norm for us Christians.

So today, I take a stand, my home is a home for Christ filled with love. What about yours?

5 months down the line

I wonder the answer people expect when they ask "how is married life?"

Married life in me and KO's opinion (yes I am forcing my opinion on him) is pretty simple. It is sharing a bed with that one person who at one point is our worst enemy and at another is your personal person. It is sharing your life with that person who steps on all your toes with stilettos and at the same time knows how to make you smile.

It is getting upset, locking doors, fighting over money, sex, what to have for supper.. It is crying, praying to God and looking at your partner's face and seeing him look at you with concern in his eyes as though he isn't the one who annoyed you to begin with.

Marriage is sharing everyday who will move heaven and earth to make you happy and at the same time annoy you by spilling stew on your cooker and refusing to clean up.

It is making the best of every situation you find yourself in because you have each other

It is having a personal fan club

It is living with that voice in your head outside your head. (Dude, I don't need you to tell me what I am thinking out loud)

Seriously, when the honeymoon phase wore off, and as my hormones fluctuates monthly, there have been days where I have asked myself whether I made a mistake but each day, I run to God and I know there is no way, I could have... It's just that marriage by nature is a lot of work and I am glad to have this annoying, tall, handsome man to share the task with

On being a good thing

"And God saw all that He had made and He it was very good" Genesis 1:31

"He who finds a wife, finds a good thing and obtains favour from the Lord" Proverbs 18v22

" And if one can overpower him who is alone, two can resist him. A three stranded chord is not quickly torn apart" Ecclesiastes 4:12

So, I told my husband I will always see him as God saw his very first. " He is good". Then he smiled and said, "you will always be my good thing". We laughed over it as usual thinking it was one of those mushy moments.

However, this morning I woke up and the first thing I said to myself was, " I am KO's good thing". I felt good saying that to myself. It felt so real.

However, as the day progresses, I keep thinking about what it takes to be a good thing. Yeah, its pretty simple, right? The scriptures says a wife is a good thing and I am a wife.

So why do I keep thinking it takes more than a wedding and a wedding band to make one a wife? Because I am right.

A wife is her husband's unflinching support. That statement is so heavy I almost choked on it. Because as I was writing that, I asked myself "Will I pack my bags and follow KO if God tells him to quit his job and become a village evangelist?"

A wife who is a good thing knows how to call on God. She draws her strength and her beauty from the Lord. She does not bring disgrace to her husband. She does not go on random dates with other men. She will not allow other men to touch her anyhow no matter how playful it may be. She is a good thing.

The bible calls her in Proverbs 31 "A wife of noble character". She is a good thing and her husband has full confidence in her. She is financially smart, morally upright, respectful.. She is a good thing.

No she is not to be pushed over. Her silence is heavier than her words. She is valued. She is a good thing

She is hardworking, decent, beautiful, worth more than rubies. She is a good thing.

The more I think about it, the standards of a proverbs 31 woman almost seems too high to attain. But whilst I kept reflecting on it, my mind goes to Ecclesiastes 4:12

When a man and a woman who God himself has used the word good to describe come together, they can resist the enemy but when God gets in the picture, they can never be broken.

Just because my husband is good and I am his good thing does not guarantee we will not be torn apart. We need the master himself to  stay in our boat with us. That is another post entirely

I am a good man's good thing, I will not let any man address me anyhow, touch me anyhow, play psychological games on me anyhow, intimidate me because we had a past because a good man has made me a good thing...

Stay blessed

My vow

Yesterday, I randomly asked KO what his favourite part of our wedding was. I was expecting him to say something like when he first saw me in my dress but his answer brought a smile to my face. He simply said, "our vows". That is my favourite part as well.

A vow is more than some fancy words thrown together, it is a promise made with God as a witness and each day we live together is marked by these vows.

I woke up today and simply made another vow to him. I told him, " I promise to see you each day as God did when he created the first man. God said, it is good. Each day, I see you and I say, "you are good"

Before we came up with our vows, we spent hours studying about vows. Ironically, our wedding sermon was about vows.

Below, is my vows to my King. One day, when he permits me, I will share his vows here too

> Kwabena, sometimes right in the middle of an ordinary life, God gives us a fairytale.

> You are my fairytale, My one simple reason for believing in true love.My secret dream which came true
>
>
> Today, I stand before God, our families and friends, to promise to love you faithfully as long as we
both shall live.
>
I vow to help you love life,
To have the patience that love demands,
To speak when words are needed
And to share the silence when they are not
I promise to accept you just as you are...
> And challenge you to be the best you can be
>
> I promise to be your bestfriend,
And to live in the warmth of your heart and always call it home.

So today, I ask for your all for keeps.
To make more memories with you as you take your place
As the king of my castle, the herald of my future and the father of our legacy

> I love you and always will. Every day, all the time and always.
For the rest of our lives together... This is my solemn vow to you.

The art of marriage: Joanne Woodard and Paul Newman

To be married for fifty years is a big deal for any couple but for a Hollywood couple, that is eternity...

I guess the statement above explains my new found fascination with Joanne Woodard and Paul Newman. I first came across Joanne's name when I came across a quote of hers I totally loved. So, I run a quick Google search on her to find out if she was one of em big talking Hollywood bimbos and what I found about her gave me many awwww moments.

Paul met Joanne in 1953, they claim it was love at first sight but he was already married. Four years later when his marriage ended, they hooked up, dated, had a small wedding and a great marriage till death did em part in 2008 after fifty years together.

I used Google images to search for pictures of em and the chemistry in each picture was awesome...... Just awesome... True love exists folks, it does but its a lot of hardwork and faith and hardwork

A man who makes me laugh

If you think I'm a bubbly, laughing, extra hyped human being, then it is time I introduce you to my fuel.... Tadaaaa, B!!!!!

OK, I lie, I was already all that before I met B but seriously, that man will be the death of me with his jokes which I laugh.

Between us, everyday is a night of thousand and something laughs. What really freaks me is how he manages to put on a calm collected face after cracking those jokes whilst I only manage to look like a fool. Evidence is in the pictures below.

You should have seen the look on my face when I saw the Ayittey Powers and Bukom Banku picture. That is one fight I would not miss for the world. I even think I need to go to the ring side...

I'm on a fitness journey. Don't ask, won't tell!!!

When the going gets tough

Some days are harder to handle than others and today is one of such days.

You wake up, take a look at your wedding band and suddenly, you are overwhelmed with emotions about the day you married your bestfriend, then you take a look at his empty side of the bed and remember why they say loving a soldier is one of the crazily wonderful things in the world ..

There are days I actually ask myself "Na who force me?" But luckily those days are far apart.

There are days where its OK to cry, its understandable but remember, God took the strongest women and made their match with a soldier....

And if that doesn't work and your partner's crappy internet won't allow you to chat with him, remember, you got it better than him. Lol. You are not the one stuck in some cold desert country. Lol

And if that doesn't work, do what I am about to do, eat cake!!

Tell the world

And once again, I show my face like I never left!!! In my defense, I had a lot of getting used to do.

Well, I have been married for 3 amazing months with forever more to go and the hubby has been away the bulk of this time. (Please don't ask me how I am coping, the question kinda annoys me) But isn't love such a beautiful thing? Each day, I wake up amazed at how beautiful love really is....

I grew up dreaming of the perfect love affair, the beautiful wedding dress and most importantly the happily ever after. I went through a phase of searching for my prince everywhere. In the process, I was bruised, mishandled, damaged till I gave up.

Then I found him when I had given up on love and thought there was no such thing as a good man but he changed my perspective. He is patient, he is kind, he is the most romantic man I have ever met but most importantly, he loves me inspite of me. He taught me love is real, it is beautiful and most importantly, it exists. He is my perfection, my happy place, my perfect lover, my perfect friend and my perfect soul mate.

The man I am lucky to love the rest of my life.  My KO, my B, my gorgeous half....

Each day, I wake up not remembering how long he has been gone but looking forward to when I will see him again, remembering that each night I survive without him is a day closer to seeing his perfect smile again, to seeing the way his eyes light up when he is happy, to how he bites his lower lip when he is nervous during an arsenal match.

It's a day closer to hearing him laugh, watching him pretend to be seriously listening  to me whilst I over talk

People keep asking how I do it? And I ask, how I do what?? Well, what is there not to sacrifice for a love so true and real?? Time away is not permanent, distance can never over come love when it is real and it's not everyday you are blessed to find someone to love you when there is a big ocean between you.

Like every couple, we have our issues but I am glad I have him to have issues with.

I have never been loved this beautifully, and even the ocean between us cant change that...

Happy month of love my KO.. . I am glad I got you to grow old with, glad I get to experience the feel of your touch,so warm, so beautiful, to feel your kiss which draws out my soul to yours... I LOVE SOULFULLY and I will never get tired of telling you that