The one He kept for me

God bless my husband.
I love my love story. Maybe I appreciate it all the more because I know what it takes to date hoping that is the last one only to find yourself disappointed. But even if KO and I had found each other years earlier, I’m certain I’d still be pretty crazily in love with him had I not had to wait for him. He’s truly a gift, the best one God has given me besides salvation.

Looking back, I can see how God’s
timing worked perfectly for us. We
both had to grow in our individual
ways in order to be ready for each
other, and for our relationship. We had lessons to learn, tears to shed and strength to gain. We had to let go of so many misconception to find what God had kept for us. But the wait was not easy. In fact, it often was suffocating as I found myself dating, undating and redating.

However, as He does so well, God
used the waiting time to refine some of my mixed-up views and ways of processing emotions. And He taught me that, the breathless love of my girlhood dreams,the one we all dreamt about when we dreamt of Prince Charming simply wasn’t enough. In love’s waiting room, he did some major transplanting and gave me some brains and a bigger heart.

My Love Story
I mentioned that I love my love
story. I should tell you that, even though I didn't always have a relationship with God,I wanted God to write my romance in a way that was undeniably his handwriting. I always said, "When I marry, everyone with say for a girl who took so many messed up decisions in life, she made the perfect choice of a life partner" . I wanted the real thing, not the settled-for-probably-good-enough version. I wanted the Cinderella fairy tale only he could create.

He gave it to me.

I'm not going to tell you about my love story yet. But you should know I met K twice. The first time, he was just one of the guys in the crowd. We never spoke, never said a word and well, he caught my attention then but for a brief second. He was forgotten in minutes and I never got to know his name.

Seven years later, after God had refined me and him as well, by some miraculous means, God reintroduced us. No, I didn't know he was the stranger in the crowd. Like I said, I had long forgotten about that incident till my bff reminded me. (Btw, K is her big brother's bff)

So what exactly is my point? When you give your all to God, He gives you His very best. God is love. So many times the bible has reminded us. And He that is love knows how to give your heart desires. His timing might be different but His gifts are eternal.

When God gives it to you, it will not be that woulda-coulda-shoulda kind. It is always the real deal and once He has center place in your lives, He will perfect that which concerns you. He knows the way He taketh if you will walk with Him.

When God has your heart, He will mould you into the wife He wants you to be. He will prepare the husband you need for you.

He will break you and mould you. He will wean people from your life. He will prepare a table before you in the presence of your enemies.

Today, hand over every bit of your life to Him, invite Jesus to take control and watch Him do an awesome thing with your life.

Be blessed

Newly wed weight gain

It's real people, it really is. Two months after my wedding when I dared stepped on a scale, I had gained 10kg. Nope, I wasn't shocked, I kept coming up with excuses till one day, I saw a pic of me and I knew the weight had to go by all means.

I am not new to dieting. I have tried everything and even once did the master cleanse but I always ended up gaining the weight back. So this time I chose the tough route. I decided to work out and eat clean.

I started with Shaun T's 60 days insanity challenge. Boy, that is the hardest thing I have ever done. I couldn't stick to all 60 days. Somewhere after day 40, I gave up but the results were amazing. I was already looking toned and feeling good.

I decided a work out plan that I could stick to. Something, I could actually do for life. I got introduced to weight lifting. Well, honestly I am not seeing quick results like I did with insanity but I feel myself getting stronger and toned. I know I will stick to strength training.

However, to maximise weight loss, I think I will do one insanity day per week and still do my weight training 4 days a week. A day for lower and upper body, a day for abs and a day for all three.

Its hard, its tough but I love it. Can't wait to start training with le boo soon

The demon called Social media

It was hi5, then Facebook, then Whatsapp, then viber, then instagram, then Telegram...

Every single one of them attempting to steal our attention.

I believe in the power of social media, I reconnected with B on Whatsapp which led us to where we are, I have over one thousand face book friends and over 500 pictures on instagram. It seems we spend our time, making private moments public. Wear that dress and take a selfie, be busy trying to capture your baby's first smile instead of falling in love with it just to share with the world. Or dress up and go for that perfect date with that perfect one only to spend it starring at our phones. We forget to live in the moment instead, we create shots just to share with the world.

I am guilty and I did not even know it.

Till I saw this video .

Tears rolled down my cheek by the end of this video and I knew I had missed out several magical moments.

Today I take a stance to put down my phone and look up. I am going to be starring more into the boos eyes when he comes, make private moments exactly what they are, private.... And allow myself to fall in love with life again.

What about you?

Oldie but goodie

I always wondered why so many brides shed tears on their wedding day. I often wonder whether they have no fear of ruining their make up or what exactly will cause tears to roll down a bride's cheek on what is going to be the most beautiful day of her life.

Finally, I have it all figured out! The journey to the alter is not easy! It is one filled with try and error, pain, unshed tears and finally the joy of finding the one in whose eyes you see your entire future... Unlike most guests at a wedding, my attention is not drawn to the bride when I hear the traditional tune for the bridal march... There is more time to aww over her perfectly done make up and manicure. But I have only a brief second to capture the emotions on the grooms face. So whilst everyone is awwing over the bride, I stare deep into the face of man who will soon promise this woman the rest of his life. Often, I see the young man beaming with smiles and pride. Well, it is expected on this day. However, once or twice have I caught a groom wiping tears from his eyes whilst trying to smile for the camera. And these men leave me feeling a teeny weeny bit jealous of his bride. A man who is in tune with his emotions.

Growing up in the „Beema ensu“ culture, it is hard to grab a man who will openly declare his love with a quickly wiped away tear that the journey to the alter is not easy for the man as well. And nope; I am not talking about the cost involved in planning this day. I am droning on and on about the near in love experience, the heartbreaks, the pain.... you name it! I'm sure on my wedding day, I am going to make a sign of the cross before I allow the tears to flow in memory of all the potential men who could be waiting for me at the end of the aisle and go ahead to give mysekf a mental pat on the back for making a sensible decision in the end. I am going to give myself a split second to savour what led me to select the stunning young man at the end of the aisle and proudly march on to exchange marital vows with him. I am going to savour every moment of my transition from girlfriend to wife and allow my wedding day to be the day both statuses will meet. I will start my journey as a fiancee and end as a wife.

And when that day is done, I am going to lay in his arms and promise to be the best wife he can ever ask for keeping my journey to the alter at the back of my mind!

I wrote this post in March 2010 and yup, I did shed a tear on my wedding day and I burst into laughter whilst crying... Oh to be a bride!!!!